Tuesday, June 3, 2014

Motivation


As many of you know, I consider myself an aspiring writer. I practice writing whenever I can, and have for some time. Recently I've been doing it far more frequently than I have in the past, in no small part than the down time I'm afforded between calls working at CapTel. I've been trying to find an effective motivator that works for me specifically; apparently being forced into one place for a long period of time with no option to surf the Internet, play video games or watch Youtube motivates me quite well.

This of course is not the only motivator, just a tactic to curb my mind's heedless desire to wander rather than focus. Once focused, I have been able these past nine or ten months to synthesize a (huge) amount of disconnected thoughts, daydreams and fancies into something tangible.

I'm not the kind of writer who has to focus on one story, and cannot work on anything else until that story is written, linearly, beginning to end. I've learned that, as well as many other things about myself over the past year. Most of the time, I'll get an idea for a story I like and I'll try to get it all down before it "poofs" out of my mind forever, but I'm not in the position to do so, or I don't get enough down to keep me engaged enough to work on it in the future.

That hasn't been the case about one story in particular, and for almost a year I've been in the perfect situation to finally stop procrastinating, stop making excuses not to write, and actually turn it into something. I can honestly say I've never been happier with a story, never been more attached to its characters, never been more proud of an idea that I've turned into a work of fiction.

George R.R. Martin was once asked, when he began writing "A Song of Ice and Fire", if he had any idea that the sprawling story of Westeros and its people would turn into something so big, both in terms of scale and following. I'm ecstatic, but I can't know for sure what kind of a following this is going to get. Maybe it'll burn out, maybe it'll get a decent number of view/books sold/etc, maybe all it will gain me is good writing experience and a few hundreds of hours enjoying the art form that I have loved most for as long as I can remember. I only know this for sure: I've never been more excited to find out. Partially, I suppose, because I felt compelled to add something that Martin once felt compelled to create, as he explained in his response to the interviewer's question- a response that I can relate to, as I'm starting to feel the same way:


"I knew I was doomed when I drew the map."